Photograph - I don't want your

so i was asked to elucidate on the whole canceling my friend's visit from out west this weekend. apparently i didn't give enough of the juicy details that lead up to everything.



in general, i consider myself to be fairly liberal. politically, i've always voted democrat, i think we should legalize some things that are not legal now. I mean, come on, if we'll allow people to drink themselves silly, why not let them smoke themselves silly too? thinking back on my college days, i'd have much rather been in a car with someone who'd been smoking than someone who'd been drinking. of course some of this may stem from my super low tolerance of alcohol too. being a lightweight, a couple of drinks and i'm down for the count.



anyway, so back on topic. For the most part i'm pretty liberal. however, in some ways i'm pretty old fashioned. i'm growing a garden in the back yard, i get up at 5:30 to read the news paper and have my coffee before work, and i carry a handkerchief in my back pocket. I've never really been interested in dating several girls at one time. I'll meet someone and stick with them until i've figured out if it's going to work. casual dates never really appealed to me. i've always been taken with the notion of getting married and staying that way. so far i'm 0 for 1 on that front.



in my earlier post i mentioned pictures being one of the major reasons things turned sour. how ever could that be you ask? well, it went a little something like this:



She asked if i'd like some more pictures, we'd exchanged a few pictures already. Something a bit naughty she said. i thought, hmm, maybe something low cut or one of her favorite outfits that make her look good. we all have that one outfit that we think we look best in. it shows off our best attributes and gives us that spark of confidence, " i dont think i look good tonight, i know it!" i had no idea what i was in for.



i rolled home and fired up the computer, thought i'd get a look in before the guys got to the house for game night. *thunk* <---- thats the sound of my jaw hitting the floor when i opened my mail and saw a series of progressively naughtier pics. By the last one, all her naughty bits were showing and i was stunned. bear in mind, i've only spoken to this girl on the phone and exchanged emails with her, we've never met in real life. Now, i'm not all that old, just 32. she's five years younger than me and i didn't think our differences would be that great over something like this. I'd never, ever, send nude photos to someone i'd met on the Internet. hell, i'd never send them to anyone at all. Even if i was still married to my ex and she was away from home for a while, i wouldn't have sent them to her. It's just not something i'm comfortable with. again this has nothing to do with how i look, i'm quite happy about my body, just shy i guess.



Now, imagine trying to explain this to her. "No, it has nothing to do with how you look in the pictures, you're a very pretty girl. I'm just not comfortable with getting those in the mail." she declined to believe that. instead she insisted it was because she was 'a little overweight' from the baby she had a few years ago. let's be frank, her extra weight was a little discomforting. It's not like she was shamu huge or anything, just a little heavier than she'd like and while it wasn't attractive to me, it was something that she was working on and that would have been fine with me. For Pete's sake, i'm only 5'2" tall. i'm ok with a little physical imperfection, what choice do i have?



thats the long and short of it. She texted me last night wanting more explanation of what went so wrong so quickly. i declined to make a phone call to her. a friend said to me, Wednesday she cried. Today, she's pissed and wants to yell at you. I'm not a big fan of that so i'll write her an articulate email she can read and rant at whenever she's ready.



on the upside, i baked a baklava last night. i hated it. but then again, i don't like much of anything that i bake. it's not really for me anyway, it's for the masses. once again i took a few pictures but can't get them posted on here to share with you.

got a bachelor party on tap for tonight. poor guy, doesn't know what he's in for!

tio